Being in Orlando for Ally’s soccer tournament (I’m sorry, I forgot to add “rainy and COLD” before Orlando) made me feel like the new year hadn’t really come at all. Despite the spectacular fireworks we saw, and the party in the hotel lobby, where the beaded party dresses were like 10 pounds, the idea that I’d be writing 2015 instead of 2014 seemed not to register.
I thought about resolutions, but what with walking around wrapped in a blanket, wearing the same moldy sweatshirt (my warmest item of clothing) for three days, and getting preposterously lost on the way to dinner for an hour and a half one night, while 35 hungry people and players waited for us, I wasn’t able to properly concentrate on what I’d like to work on this new year.
So, here are a few of the things I’ve been thinking about since I came home:
1. Use my new foot! Ah, yes. I can’t adequately express the fun of having a functional foot! It’s been such a long time since I haven’t had to worry about not “using up” my foot, that I have a whole lot more room in my brain for all sorts of other worries! Seriously, I had to plot out my daily activities, in order to be able to walk, so this kind of freedom is all sorts of crazy for me. Between my trainer moving to Cali, and my foot’s demise, I haven’t been exercising regularly, and it has taken its toll both physically and mentally. But I am jumping feet first into 2015.
2. I am going to make every effort to give it on over to meditation. I jump on and off this bandwagon a few times a year, but I am going to try and get quiet here, and make this the year.
3. Be more open to what can be. And of course, I don’t mean more open with my feelings, or thoughts, because you know I’m already wearing my heart on my sleeve, but more open to any and all possibilities. Work, joy, relationships. Not just peering in doors that are half open, but busting in.
4. As always, I will continue to work on my organizational skills. Ho, hum, but always worthwhile, and my yearly resolution to get my shit together in this regard, has taken me a step further with every dropping ball.
5. Find a charity. I’ve been giving my time to my kid’s schools for the past 15 years, but with Ally graduating next year, I will need another organization to give my time to, one I believe makes a meaningful difference (I’m sorry, but I’m not going to be one of those creepy people who keeps working for the school after their kids graduate. Um, no.)
6. Lastly, I’d like to eat better food, maybe veg out once or twice a week. That means shopping more, and cooking more, but maybe also, feeling more energy. Sounds like a fair trade.
All these things are doable. And if I just keep them in mind everyday, with the idea of making some inroads, I will consider myself a resolutionary success (I will make up more words this year, too).